Well, I can’t play anymore. I can’t win. I can’t do anything. I’m super frustrated. I’m on a never-ending tilt hell. If it’s not one thing, it’s another. I’m completely inside out.
I’ll play decent for a short time, but never long enough to win chips in a tournament.
I go up early, then lose a big hand, then exit a few hands later.
I’ll get nothing until I’m nearly out, then shove desperately and hit a lucky pot win, boost up to chip leader, and then just as quickly bust out before the bubble.
I get called when I’m bluffing like I’m being dealt face-up.
Every time I have a hand, someone else has a better hand.
I started the week at 2.2M chips in the bankroll, and as of now am at 1.4M.
I took chips in one 9-seater today, 2nd place finish, the only game where I played consistently good and had playable cards throughout most of the tournament. Was close to winning it but got beat on two big hands during heads-up where I had top pair and my opponent had a rag set.
Everything else has not been close. bold = chips won
9-seat SNG: 6th
9-seat SNG: 7th
3-seat SNG: 3rd
Lucky 8s: 41st
9-seat SNG: 2nd
Open Happiness: 38th
3-seat SNG: 2nd
9-seat SNG: 8th
3-seat SNG: 2nd
9-seat SNG: 5th
9-seat SNG: 4th
Grand Canyon: 22nd
3-seat SNG; 1st
3-seat SNG: 2nd
3-seat SNG: 3rd
3-seat SNG: 3rd
Yesterday, it was much the same:
3-seat SNG: 1st
3-seat SNG: 3rd
3-seat SNG: 3rd
3-seat SNG: 3rd
3-seat SNG: 2nd
3-seat SNG: 3rd
3-seat SNG: 3rd
3-seat SNG: 3rd
3-seat SNG: 3rd
9-seat SNG: 8th
9-seat SNG: 9th
9-seat SNG: 8th
Lucky 8s: 52nd
The Mad Express: 47th
Two days ago:
3-seat SNG: 3rd
3-seat SNG: 1st
The Cut Off: 2nd
American Special: 83
9-seat SNG; 4th
3-seat SNG: 3rd
3-seat SNG: 2nd
9-seat SNG: 4th
I feel like something has changed about the way people are playing, and I haven’t caught up to it. For a while, the 3-max SNG was a money-maker for me, I could reliably win better than 1-in-3, often closer to 1-in-2, now I’m getting killed for 50k chips every 5 minutes in them.
I could also hit money in a 9-seater between 1-in-4 and 1-in-2. Most nights slightly profitable, occasionally taking a slide.
This current slide has me all the way back to within 200K of my starting bankroll from 3 months ago when I resumed actively playing, so it’s pretty awful.
Two weeks ago, I was up, I felt like I’d finally figured out poker and could continue winning. Today? I feel like I know nothing, and like I should just give up and take a break for maybe 6 months and maybe not come back.